Hole in the Pocket

Hmmm.. How do i start writing? Well guess its just typing whatever happen to u today, i think..OK got it! Woke up like 12.30pm and got ready to meet RINNY the PINNY, whahha. We headed town. And we did some shopping. And i guess tat's it no more shopping. My pockets are empty.. literally!! Bought a bag.. and they came in plastic bag which looked like the ones in the market. So luckily i went to MONDO to get myself a pair of pointy shoes. So there they gave nicer paper bags which i could fit my bag in too. So at least it doesnt look like i brought something from the market. So Rinny(whahha i love calling her tat.. tho she hates it) bought herself a pair of shoes too. Pointy ones! WEeWheEt!!And den we walked around town den decide to head back home. And man... nowadays young punks they think there are in US!! The way they dress they all think they are Good Charlotte.But den again i guess its their concept, so i have no right to say anything. Its their style.Who are to judge Val.haha.. ok side track...So anyway den i headed to have dinner with mom, bro and sis in law. Had a good time. Tea Tarik was power pack!! whahha. and den pass by the Bapok lane. Really amazed me how beautiful they are. Better den the ladies out there.

SO here i am. back home! guess i'll watch a dvd later. Really Wonder how time flies and one day is gone just like that. Den comes tmr and we try to do someting and again it goes on and on. Den sch starts.. den graduate.. den work.. den bla bla bla.. ok i'm stopping cos i really have no idea what to write.

Like they all say, "Time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself."

Vacations Over!

Hey its me again. WOW.. its really been a long time since i last blog. Well so much has happen to me within this time,May 14 i came back home. Spoke my heart out to him. Assured him i'll do him proud take care of mom. Its really heart torturingto see your love one lie there in pain but not expressing it out. JUst keeping quiet enduring any pain that comes.I'll nvr be able to do what my dad did.


"you fought this battle well and you fought like a warrior." That was what i told on May 14.




I nvr thought that was the last i ever spoke to him agian. I went to take my shower and dinner. An hour later after i spoke to him. I heard my auntie shouting out my name. I ran to the room. My aunt said. " i think your dad's gone"I knew this was coming.But when the time come. Damn! Its hard to handle. I was shouting. God knows what i said. I shaked my dad to see if he was still breathing. BUt all in vain. He was gone. Gone to be with the lord. He really went to sleep toput all of his pain to rest. So May 16, he was creamated. My Dad's physical body was gone. He must be happy wherever he is right now smiling and looking upon us. Watchin over us and protecting us.
The loneliness didnt hit then during the funeral but after everyone was gone. Back to continue with their lives. We too hadto move on with ours. Till todae as i am typing this i feel my life is very lonely with my dad. We used to talk and talkabout stuffs. I nvr hid anything from him. Even when i got late in sch i told him. THe funny part is i nvr felt lonelyeven though he was sick and lying in the room. i still knew he was there. But now when i walk past the room and i see the bed emptyit jus hurts. I had plans for my parents when i work i'll bring them out. Treat them with my money. Well the dreamsgoes to my mom know. Man its too fast. MY buddy left and he aint coming back. Maybe one day we'll meet again.


"Death is certain, live is uncertain"